If I grow spritually will God reverse time?

I believe my purpose is to grow spiritually which is from my previous lives.Yes I believe in reincarnation and I dont expect God to expect me to live out the rest of this life cause I dont want to,this generation is getting worse and sicker.I wanna kill myself everyday thinking about God not reversing time for me I believe God is capable of doing so and I really want him to end my reincarnation but letting me return to my first life and do right and DONT reincarnate.