So my wife and I have separated 1 month ago, I was rude to her?

I was rude to her for like two years prior to her leaving. I am a workoholic and always feel like she is against me trying to get ahead and she thinks i work to stay away from her. I know I was rude and snappy at her and I am sorry for this I was i guess we were in a bad spot in our marriage It happens. She moved out and into a jointly owned property we were flipping and says she is so mad at me she cant even be around me. she says she loves me but not like she did. she doesnt want anything bad to happen to me but she cant live like that anymore. I never touched this woman ever. I have been in a living hell since she left its like she died and I cant deal with it. I realize how much she really means to me and my hands are tied, shes being pretty bitchy and wont let me see the step girls I have raised for last 6 yeatrs. What the hell is going through her mind. Its as if she is playing roll reversal. IDK HELP ME